This time next year:
I will be a CYT graduate.
I will be a HIGHSCHOOL graduate.
I will be in college, whether at MCC (please no...), or out of state in school in CA or TX.
I will have a job.
Erica will finally be back in America somewhere!
The internet will finally be updated on my macbook. (I should HOPE)
I will have another married cousin!
We will have celebrated one year in this house.
I will have conquerd another summer of growth.
I will officially be an adult.
This time next year, everything will be different. Whether I want it to be so or not... Turning 18 and graduating everything is an automatic life changer. So much has happened just in this past year that I can not even imagine more changes than have already come... And to think. After this year, there will be another year, and another, and another, and 20 more if I'm lucky.
I can not even imagine all of the life that I have left to experience. It's exhausting, really! I feel like I've learned so much that I barely even have room left in my body for more knowledge and wisdom. Anything past the end of this summer is just to far to plan... So much can happen before then I almost am afraid to plan! When I was young I was in such a hurry to grow up and experience everything, wear make up, watch PG13 movies, not have a bed time, drive. I wanted to do it all SO bad. Now... I can wait. I'm happy to take things day by day as they come to me, because at this point in my life... there's really no better way to live in the moment then to actually live in the moment. Sure I have to make some plans for the future... But I'm trying to leave most of it up to God's leading. There's no better way to lose sight of God's plan than to box yourself into a set life when you're 17. I know that there is endless possibilities for me, I just hope I get the privilege of living to experience all of them :)
I went to this youth night with Natalie, Shelby, and Cassidy this past Saturday. Totally life changing. The Barlow's family friend Schlyce was in town with her assistant Jason (Can you say Crush from FN? haha..), her two kids, and her nanny Cassidy(So nice!), and they had set up a youth night for her to speak to some teens. Which is what I went to! haha. It was all about living a supernatural faith and the power that we as our generation have to change the world and the Christian stereotype. It gave me so much to think about... and it showed me how much I've been missing out on by living the typical Christian life style. There is SO much more that I didn't pay attention to... I pray, read bible verses, and love to worship. But did I ever pay attention to miracles? praying in tounges? A relationship with Christ can be anything BUT ordinary. When I had the opportunity to become filled with the Holy Spitit and recieve the gift of tounges... to be honest. I was a little hesitant. I was afraid, I'm not going to lie. Once I was filled with the Holy Spirit I knew.... there would really be no turning back. And I've never really been so gung-ho on the commitment front. But I did it anyways. And I have never been so glad to do anything in my life. I was able to become filled with the Holy Spirit WITH Shelby and with the help of Natalie. It was so cool.
I honestly didn't understand the concept of a full life with God before I did it. It wasn't like it hadn't been explained to me, I just didn't know what I was missing out on until I got it. I have never felt so much joy, or such fullness inside my heart. It really made me think about how much exploration and growth I have yet to accomplish in my faith. I thought that eventually I would just hit a spiritual high ground and be there forever... I thought that I had hit that high ground... Boy oh boy was I ever wrong. I don't have enough body for all of the love God has to fill it. It only took me laughing until I had tears streaming down my face, because of GOD, to realize it.
Proudly drunk on the Holy Spirit! Smokin the Jehovajuana! Never to be the same :)
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