currently listening to: sea of love (cat power) cover.
I think I'm getting old and young at the same time. Like Benjamin Button, except for not really. Mentally for me. I seem to be forgetting things alot... I hope this isn't the result of some brain malfunction.
I am... nervous.. to stay the least about college/gap year/esthetician school/general future. It would be awesome if somebody just told me whether I'm choosing the right path or doing the right thing. Or how to prepare. That would be cool too. I just... don't want to mess up my future because I didn't know something I should've been doing. Ultimately I have faith that I will end up in the correct place eventually I guess. I will just have to to trust God through all of this. obviously. As if I could live through what I've gone through without doing so.
I refuse to talk about my romantic endeavors here. This is a sacred arena. But there is someone.
Unfortunately. It's just awful for my state of mind. I'm nowhere near mature enough for this.
This has been a strange year... with everything going on and all.
Oh that reminds me!
I slept over at Rachael's monday night after project dance and we were talking about... well alot of things really... but one particular thing she said stuck to me. We were talking of sensitive things and she said "can't they just let me be upset and frusterated? Who says I want them to solve all of my problems?"
This is so true. I really don't even have to say much more. But to be clear, when I have an issue with myself.... I don't really expect people to solve it just because I'm vocal about it. Sometimes. I just need to air my feelings in order to heal them... That really helps me.
I have had a serious passion for music lately. I just go bananas for it. and singing. mmmm.
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