Unintentional ofcourse.
I can count on two hands and two feet the amount of times I have meant to write something I was thinking about. I never have been very good with follow through though.
So my hair is in a ponytail today. Feelin' kinda interesting.
Not really myself.
Maybe it is because I am sick with croup/whooping cough/mononucleosis/VD/being deaf.... Maybe nay.
I like Missy Higgins right now, my musical tastes are changing. I also am feeling Taylor Swift(I'm shocked as well), Michael Buble(I never thought...), Erin McKeown, Sara Bareilles, Noah & the Whale, and Steely Dan(I am having father troubles you see, and this reminds me of the good 'ol days).
Actually, all of me is changing. I can actually feel a complete overhaul happening on my insides.
God is good. I have been getting tired of being the same. I feel passion to create, which is sweet, but I combine this with absoluetly no time. So that is unfortuntate.
Really though. If I could sew my thoughts... I would love my wardrobe.
I am finally recognizing the importance of bible verses.
God has really been showing himself to me and giving me peace through them and they've been seriously helping me in my everyday life.
I have been a terrible friend lately though, which I feel bad about. I am worried I'm going to fall away from the friends that I've been really close with lately. I need to work on that I guess.
I'm taking voice from a new teacher, and my more recent recreational singing in, wait for it, public (you heard right) has lead me even further into my passion for blues and jazz music.
Sometimes I even think I'm not too bad at it.
I learned how to use t9. I'm not sure how I feel about this yet.
I am becoming more fluent in spanish.
I'm still working for chely, but I'm working more often now. I don't like going to work, but I like washing hair and cleaning the salon and mixing things. It makes me want to do makeup like nothing other.
I am growing up. I am terrified about this, really. That is just me being completely honest. I don't want to be an adult because I'm afraid that I will lose a part of my soul. Even though sometimes I feel and enjoy feeling 45, I don't want to actually be it. I want my parents to be responsible for me and I don't want to not be in school and CYT and things that kids and teenagers do. I do not want to have to pay bills and be responsible. I just want to enjoy.
I do want to go to walmart and get some big sweatpants though. And go to goodwill to see if they have anything nice there.
And I do have to go pick up my mom now from work. So I guess I'll take my leave.
I feel unsettled, drat. I have a chemisatan test tomorrow at graceland and it's going to be a weird day. Atleast bones will be on tomorrow night... lame of me to look forward to television.
Adios comrade.
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