yiggity yo yo yo.
I'm working on my Joseph audition now.... It feels like petah pan auditions were just like 2 weeks ago, but it's going to be such a crazy 2 weeks I HAVE to get it started now....
I really want to sing climbing uphill from the last 5 years... I'm not really sure how it will sound though...
I'm a lamey and am going to share with you what my next few weeks is looking like... as of right now.
Wednesday(tomorrow): HYPE showcase worship rehersal
Thurs.: Jacobs, Grace, Work, Play on
Fri.: HHSW, Rehersal
Sat.: Rehersal, Alice
Sun.: SOM
Mon.: Shop for show week supplies, Dress Rehersal
Tues.: Jacobs, Dress
Wed.: Tanning, Dress
Thurs.: Jacobs, Grace, Into the woods
Fri.: HHSW/Cinderella, Opening Night
Sat.: Shows
Sun.: Shows
Mon.: Jacobs, Showcase
Tues.: shows
Wed.: NOTHING thank you Jesus., Jacobs, retanning, Rachels?
Thurs.: Schooldays
Fri.: School days, Shows
Sat.: Shows
Sun.: Closing show for peter pan.
Mon.: Classes start
Tues.: Jacobs, Audition Clinic
Wed.: Auditions for Joseph
Thurs.: Jacobs, Grace, Callbacks
Fri.: First rehersal for joseph.
WHAT? ONE (kind of) FREE DAY IN 3 WEEKS?
I'm blessed to have these oppertunities, but I am going to be so cranky.
God bless you theater children.
Every one.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Monday, February 16, 2009
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Nights in Rodanthe/Secret life of bees
I hope that someday I am able to find love that makes me want to be the best that I can be.
I would like someone who I trust
and who makes me laugh
and who I feel safe with.
I guess that I will bide my time alone for now, trusting that God will lead me to my perfect person.
I think you make your own family sometimes.
I would like someone who I trust
and who makes me laugh
and who I feel safe with.
I guess that I will bide my time alone for now, trusting that God will lead me to my perfect person.
I think you make your own family sometimes.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Oh what a time we'll have
I'm not sure about today at all...
I think I didn't like the evening portion.
9:30-3:30 rehersal
3:30-4:30 home and meltdown
4:30-1:00am McGowans
I was lonely in the true sense of the word. Not like ahhh I have no friends and no life I'm going to become a slut.
Lonely:
a. Without companions; lone.
b. Characterized by aloneness; solitary.
2. Unfrequented by people; desolate: a lonely crossroads.
3. Dejected by the awareness of being alone.
I guess I'm starting to get used to that though.
This didn't really have a point.
I just need a break.
And some friends.
And some sleep.
And to be alone but not lonely.
Which is not how I'm presently feeling... you know, incase you missed that.
And I can't find my cellphone.
Also, my vocabulary has really been bothering me.
I don't like saying "oh my life" or "ef my life" or "what is happening to my life"
I'm blessed to have life at all.
I moght need something to remind me of that.
Hopefully it doesn't hurt me.
I think I didn't like the evening portion.
9:30-3:30 rehersal
3:30-4:30 home and meltdown
4:30-1:00am McGowans
I was lonely in the true sense of the word. Not like ahhh I have no friends and no life I'm going to become a slut.
Lonely:
a. Without companions; lone.
b. Characterized by aloneness; solitary.
2. Unfrequented by people; desolate: a lonely crossroads.
3. Dejected by the awareness of being alone.
I guess I'm starting to get used to that though.
This didn't really have a point.
I just need a break.
And some friends.
And some sleep.
And to be alone but not lonely.
Which is not how I'm presently feeling... you know, incase you missed that.
And I can't find my cellphone.
Also, my vocabulary has really been bothering me.
I don't like saying "oh my life" or "ef my life" or "what is happening to my life"
I'm blessed to have life at all.
I moght need something to remind me of that.
Hopefully it doesn't hurt me.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
I'll show you mine, if you show me yours first.
First of all, can I just say that I totally called thursday being a weird day? It was good weird, but weird none the less. I ended up seeing Jersey boys. Which was very good.
Now to get down to business. I am loving the song swing life away by rise against. So great.
"I'll show you mine if you show me yours first. Let's compare scars I'll tell you whose is worse."
Things have happened to me.
But things have happened to everybody.
What should this mean to my friendships? I have what alot of people would consider major issues in my past, but I don't walk around advertising them and blaming my faults and problems on them. So how do I know if I should tell people? Is it really important? The thing is, if people dont know these things about me can they ever really know the real me? Or what makes me tick? Don't you have to know about influencial things inorder to really know someone?
"I've got some friends, some that I hardly know. But we've had some times I wouldn't trade for the world."
I have friends. I have friends that I talk to once a month and friends that I talk to almost everyday. How are best friends determined? Is it a mutual decision? Do you have to be somebody's best friend in order for them to really be yours? Traveling back to the last paragraph, do your best friends have to know everything about you? If the answers to those two questions is yes... then I have no best friends, and that is really sad to me. Can I help it that when it comes to huge things life bestfriendom I'm very shy and personal? I love the memories that I have with my friends, but so many of my realtionships have fallen away and I don't understand why. Am I bad at building and sustaining relationships? I guess the only way I'll ever know is if somebody calls me out on it. Which will hurt me. I'm not a fighter by nature.
I don't really get angry in public. I know and love alot of dramatic people. People who get upset and shut down or yell in public, I'm not really one of them though. I don't know how or why I came to this subconcious realization, but what good does it do to get upset over little things? Why would somebody get upset about something minor when there are so many larger problems in the world? I think that anger and holding grudges waste time. Time is so valueable to me. Everymoment is a huge blessing and I should hope that most people do not spend those moments angry.
I wish that people think me as a friendly person. I don't ever want to be seen as intimidating or impersonal. I was shut out for so long and it really impressed on me to never be like the people who did it to me. Woooooow. Did that make me sound like a whiny person or whizzzat?
I basically don't want to be a crazy selfish loon.
I want to be christlike to others.
I want to shine.
Well that's enough for today. I have spanish again tomorrow. I am really ready to be done with public school. FUN thing: tuesday is supposed to be like 60 degrees. I am so excited. I am ready for this season to be over I think. I've learned my lesson from winter and I need the breath of fresh air that spring brings. Plus, I'm SO excited to not have to wear longsleeves, leggings, sweatshirts, and tights under everything. You don't even know. Unless you know how much I don't like being clothed.
laaaaata homeskillet.
p.s. I'm finally going to 'put labels' in one of these. Whatever that means...
Now to get down to business. I am loving the song swing life away by rise against. So great.
"I'll show you mine if you show me yours first. Let's compare scars I'll tell you whose is worse."
Things have happened to me.
But things have happened to everybody.
What should this mean to my friendships? I have what alot of people would consider major issues in my past, but I don't walk around advertising them and blaming my faults and problems on them. So how do I know if I should tell people? Is it really important? The thing is, if people dont know these things about me can they ever really know the real me? Or what makes me tick? Don't you have to know about influencial things inorder to really know someone?
"I've got some friends, some that I hardly know. But we've had some times I wouldn't trade for the world."
I have friends. I have friends that I talk to once a month and friends that I talk to almost everyday. How are best friends determined? Is it a mutual decision? Do you have to be somebody's best friend in order for them to really be yours? Traveling back to the last paragraph, do your best friends have to know everything about you? If the answers to those two questions is yes... then I have no best friends, and that is really sad to me. Can I help it that when it comes to huge things life bestfriendom I'm very shy and personal? I love the memories that I have with my friends, but so many of my realtionships have fallen away and I don't understand why. Am I bad at building and sustaining relationships? I guess the only way I'll ever know is if somebody calls me out on it. Which will hurt me. I'm not a fighter by nature.
I don't really get angry in public. I know and love alot of dramatic people. People who get upset and shut down or yell in public, I'm not really one of them though. I don't know how or why I came to this subconcious realization, but what good does it do to get upset over little things? Why would somebody get upset about something minor when there are so many larger problems in the world? I think that anger and holding grudges waste time. Time is so valueable to me. Everymoment is a huge blessing and I should hope that most people do not spend those moments angry.
I wish that people think me as a friendly person. I don't ever want to be seen as intimidating or impersonal. I was shut out for so long and it really impressed on me to never be like the people who did it to me. Woooooow. Did that make me sound like a whiny person or whizzzat?
I basically don't want to be a crazy selfish loon.
I want to be christlike to others.
I want to shine.
Well that's enough for today. I have spanish again tomorrow. I am really ready to be done with public school. FUN thing: tuesday is supposed to be like 60 degrees. I am so excited. I am ready for this season to be over I think. I've learned my lesson from winter and I need the breath of fresh air that spring brings. Plus, I'm SO excited to not have to wear longsleeves, leggings, sweatshirts, and tights under everything. You don't even know. Unless you know how much I don't like being clothed.
laaaaata homeskillet.
p.s. I'm finally going to 'put labels' in one of these. Whatever that means...
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Oh dear sweet tiny baby Jesus it has been a w'h'ile.
Unintentional ofcourse.
I can count on two hands and two feet the amount of times I have meant to write something I was thinking about. I never have been very good with follow through though.
So my hair is in a ponytail today. Feelin' kinda interesting.
Not really myself.
Maybe it is because I am sick with croup/whooping cough/mononucleosis/VD/being deaf.... Maybe nay.
I like Missy Higgins right now, my musical tastes are changing. I also am feeling Taylor Swift(I'm shocked as well), Michael Buble(I never thought...), Erin McKeown, Sara Bareilles, Noah & the Whale, and Steely Dan(I am having father troubles you see, and this reminds me of the good 'ol days).
Actually, all of me is changing. I can actually feel a complete overhaul happening on my insides.
God is good. I have been getting tired of being the same. I feel passion to create, which is sweet, but I combine this with absoluetly no time. So that is unfortuntate.
Really though. If I could sew my thoughts... I would love my wardrobe.
I am finally recognizing the importance of bible verses.
God has really been showing himself to me and giving me peace through them and they've been seriously helping me in my everyday life.
I have been a terrible friend lately though, which I feel bad about. I am worried I'm going to fall away from the friends that I've been really close with lately. I need to work on that I guess.
I'm taking voice from a new teacher, and my more recent recreational singing in, wait for it, public (you heard right) has lead me even further into my passion for blues and jazz music.
Sometimes I even think I'm not too bad at it.
I learned how to use t9. I'm not sure how I feel about this yet.
I am becoming more fluent in spanish.
I'm still working for chely, but I'm working more often now. I don't like going to work, but I like washing hair and cleaning the salon and mixing things. It makes me want to do makeup like nothing other.
I am growing up. I am terrified about this, really. That is just me being completely honest. I don't want to be an adult because I'm afraid that I will lose a part of my soul. Even though sometimes I feel and enjoy feeling 45, I don't want to actually be it. I want my parents to be responsible for me and I don't want to not be in school and CYT and things that kids and teenagers do. I do not want to have to pay bills and be responsible. I just want to enjoy.
I do want to go to walmart and get some big sweatpants though. And go to goodwill to see if they have anything nice there.
And I do have to go pick up my mom now from work. So I guess I'll take my leave.
I feel unsettled, drat. I have a chemisatan test tomorrow at graceland and it's going to be a weird day. Atleast bones will be on tomorrow night... lame of me to look forward to television.
Adios comrade.
I can count on two hands and two feet the amount of times I have meant to write something I was thinking about. I never have been very good with follow through though.
So my hair is in a ponytail today. Feelin' kinda interesting.
Not really myself.
Maybe it is because I am sick with croup/whooping cough/mononucleosis/VD/being deaf.... Maybe nay.
I like Missy Higgins right now, my musical tastes are changing. I also am feeling Taylor Swift(I'm shocked as well), Michael Buble(I never thought...), Erin McKeown, Sara Bareilles, Noah & the Whale, and Steely Dan(I am having father troubles you see, and this reminds me of the good 'ol days).
Actually, all of me is changing. I can actually feel a complete overhaul happening on my insides.
God is good. I have been getting tired of being the same. I feel passion to create, which is sweet, but I combine this with absoluetly no time. So that is unfortuntate.
Really though. If I could sew my thoughts... I would love my wardrobe.
I am finally recognizing the importance of bible verses.
God has really been showing himself to me and giving me peace through them and they've been seriously helping me in my everyday life.
I have been a terrible friend lately though, which I feel bad about. I am worried I'm going to fall away from the friends that I've been really close with lately. I need to work on that I guess.
I'm taking voice from a new teacher, and my more recent recreational singing in, wait for it, public (you heard right) has lead me even further into my passion for blues and jazz music.
Sometimes I even think I'm not too bad at it.
I learned how to use t9. I'm not sure how I feel about this yet.
I am becoming more fluent in spanish.
I'm still working for chely, but I'm working more often now. I don't like going to work, but I like washing hair and cleaning the salon and mixing things. It makes me want to do makeup like nothing other.
I am growing up. I am terrified about this, really. That is just me being completely honest. I don't want to be an adult because I'm afraid that I will lose a part of my soul. Even though sometimes I feel and enjoy feeling 45, I don't want to actually be it. I want my parents to be responsible for me and I don't want to not be in school and CYT and things that kids and teenagers do. I do not want to have to pay bills and be responsible. I just want to enjoy.
I do want to go to walmart and get some big sweatpants though. And go to goodwill to see if they have anything nice there.
And I do have to go pick up my mom now from work. So I guess I'll take my leave.
I feel unsettled, drat. I have a chemisatan test tomorrow at graceland and it's going to be a weird day. Atleast bones will be on tomorrow night... lame of me to look forward to television.
Adios comrade.
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