Rolling in the deep

This has been one of the strangest weeks of this year.
It hasn't been bad or good really.
It's been interesting though.
Full of revelations, time with God, creativity, talking and not talking, not sleeping and driving.
I've turned my bedroom into a cave. There are blankets, pillows and clothes everywhere. Books and cds are strewn accross those. Dirty laundry mixed with clean, etc. It's crazy in here. I kind of love it though. I can just sit in my bed for hours reading and journaling and listening to music. I like that freedom. I've been thinking a lot too. About flaws and baggage and such. Have had some pretty interesting conversations about such things.
I can't say that much elaboration is necessary, but a lot has been changing.
My fingernails are even short. And unpainted. If that doesn't say personal change, I don't know what does.

I've fallen in love with The Avett Brothers. I've been casually listening for the last year, but this week something in their music just clicked with me. And so right now I'm just a big fan. I've found some other great music too. Like Charlene Soraia and the TFDI EP. Jesse Thomas. Emy Reynolds. Even Darren Criss. Who is on glee, but has an EP that is legitimately good. It's so refreshing for me to find music that reminds me why I love what I love. Why I want to do it for the rest of my life.

I'm sort of looking for a job. I'm definitely going to need one as my schedule doesn't allow for CYT@School next semester. Which means no big bucks! The idea of a job is just so unappealing to me though. Call me spoiled, I will tell you that I have worked for the past 4 years and I still don't like it. haha.

I caved and bought jeggings yesterday. When they came out I said never would I ever because they were tacky and unflattering. Now I really don't care if they are either because they are ridiculously comfortable and warmer than leggings. They are ideal winter bottoms for those who dislike pants and I wish I would have indulged before yesterday.

It's really cold outside! Most of the time it's cold inside too because our heat is sketchy and even nonexistent in some areas (i.e. my room). Inconvenient! Atleast I like sweaters.

The chair is my current project. I have been literally throwing full nights at completing it. It's not a masterpiece or anything, but it gives me the outlet to be creative that I need in order to process and think things through. The appearance of this chair is basically the result of my heavy emotion this week. And strangely, it seems like the closer to finishing it that I get the less emotional I get. I'm not sure how that happened.

Altogether, this has been a strange first week of break.