Open the magazine.

Friendship is exhausting to me.
I just don't understand it really.
Is it a true friendship if you are constantly worrying if the other person still likes you? How do you turn it into a legit one if it's not already? Why should you have to work so hard?
Or are the only true friendships ones you don't have to work at?
The definition of friend is this:
a person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.

Well what about the people who I don't trust, but still like and know? Do they fall into some mysterious gray area not unlike purgatory?
Will I ever find out the answers here? Or are my questions just making me think up more questions?
I love the idea of friends, but in reality I have only a few friends in the truest sense of the word. I have a lot of people who I know and so many that I like, but so few that I really honestly trust with everything. People who would ask me a difficult questions or to tell them difficult things and I wouldn't just brush it off with a joke.
Maybe I want to have more true friends than that. I don't know how to just make myself trust people.
Recently I was compared to a magazine. Somebody who you meet and instantly know whether you like her, and everything about her. But then after you've met her you don't need to do much else.
Thanks a ton.
The first part is nice enough, but I want people to want to get to know me. I don't want people to think I put everything out in the open all at once. That is so untrue. I am a free girl don't mistake that, but if people think what you see is all of what you get that is falso.
I would like people to meet me and say "hey, break me off a piece of that kit kat bar."
Is this too much to ask?



"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams Live the life you've always imagined. "
-Henry David Thoreau