Speechless

Oh my lanta. Well I'm pretty sure it has been over a month now since I've posted... Not because nothing interesting has been happening, but because so much has been happening that I've been short on time. + the laptop's internet is being weird and not working... So I've been avoiding blogging so that I don't have to do it in the kitchen with everyone around. Easter was yesterday, and we celebrated in true Taylor family fashion with a favorites day. Good food, infront of the tv, watching movies all day long. It was really nice. We watched New Moon (which my dad LOVED?), The Princess & the Frog (So cute, and kind of old school disney.), The Informant (Ridiculous/awesome.), & Precious(which I watched by myself. It was disturbing. I couldn't even cry. I just sat there.) It was a good day! I've been on spring break for over a week now, with a few more days to go. It's been such a great and needed relief! I've been able to spend time with friends who I love and miss, some rare time with my mom, and some time to just sit and think. All of the above highly valued by me. The weather has been so lovely! It got up past 70 degrees last week. Sunshine and open windows lifts my spirits so so much.
I graduate highschool in 39 DAYS! I can't believe how quickly it snuck up on me! At the beginning of this year I was pretty scared to leave, because I still don't know for sure where I'll be or what I'll be doing next year... But now I'm actually really excited for what ever comes next for me. Everything that I've been going through with my college applications lately has just really taught me to let go and go get at the same time. God has a future and a plan for me, and stressing out about what He wants me to do or where He wants me to go isn't going to help me get there any faster, you know? I need to trust myself and God enough to accept that I can go after what I want and get it. If what I want isn't God's will for me, then that's one thing, but sitting back and waiting for my path in life to magically appear isn't going to do much good. I have so much faith that God will reveal His plan for me as I need to see it, that I'm not terribly worried about what I can't see right now. Each day is a gift, and time is so precious that waiting timidly for my way to be revealed is not living as God intended it to be.
I've been learning So much about the character of God in the past two months. I guess I never really thought about God as having much of a character or personality... but He has a huge one. God is funny, and smart, and witty, and silly, and gracious, and forgiving, and everything that we are attracted to in others. God doesn't just sit in a chair and rule over his people, merciful, but disinterested. My God is hands on. He wants to hear about my day, my heart, and my dreams. That's SO cool. I've been making the mistake my entire life of feeling lonely when I'm upset. From person to person, no one has been through all of the same struggles, so being only human sometimes we can't realate to each other when we're hurting. No matter how much we want to. But God has felt everything we're feeling as humans, and is around whenever we need him with grace, and advice, and His perfect love. What more could we ask for? I think sometimes we forget about God, trying to fill our pain with the advice or comfort of worldly beings or things... Not necessary.
I switched my closet out the other day for summer! And I'll be switching out my music soon also! Summer is on it's way, bringing with it countless changes and new friends and experiences. I"m really looking forward to that.
I'm taking a break from facebook, and I'm not getting texts from twitter for a little bit. I think I just need some time free from technology.
I was reading some of my oldest posts the other day! I knew what was up in 2008, man. I'm telling you. I'm going to start doing posts like that again. haha.
Until next time, which will hopefully be soon! haha.