Matthew 5:16

I'm just so exhausted.
I'm excited for school and not excited for school all at the same time.
Actually I feel alot of stress around me right now.
I gotta get rid of that and reconnect with God again. Hard core.
I want to enjoy my last bit of summer to the fullest.
Jeez I just love summer.
I love everything that it brings with it, no matter what.

New York Song

I have come to the conclusion that when you're a teenager everything feels like it's the end of the world. I know it's definitely not. It just feels like it is. I bet this how everyone else feels all the time... that would really stink.
Lordy. It feels like 7, not 4. I don't know how I'm going to fill the rest of my day...
Maybe I'll go get a movie or something. I'm just stuck in this funk and I want something to do I guess.

Maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year

Another almost-month under my belt.

What a slacker.

Since July 19th I have successfully:

-Completed a full tech week

-First weekend of West Side

-Party hardy

-Judson day camp

-Second weekend of West Side including more partying

-Memphis

-Erica!

-Jenn's sleepover

-Six flags

-Mayday Parade/Metro Station concert w/ kat, lo, and er

-Lo's going away party

-Packed a TON

-Saw 500 days of summer

what an excellent excellent month.

Lordy, I have so much to talk about. I may have to come back and say more later.

I was waiting outside of the hospital the other day for mom and I was thinking about negativity. Sunday night at Lo's I said something about disliking somebody and Jamie goes "do you still like ANYBODY anymore?" and that really stuck with me. I don't know where this new found negativity has been coming from, but I really don't care for it. It's not that I all of a sudden hate everything... I just have grown to dislike certain people. Maybe it's because I feel I know their bad parts now. Or that I judged the prematurely. Maybe I'm bitter about certain friendships. Or that I've become kind of distanced from God. Whatever it is, this has to stop. I didn't really care for being the nice girl, but in the long run is it such a bad thing? What could be bad about being a nice person? I wish that I still loved everyone. I'm going to try and work on it. Giving people second and third chances. It's important that to me not to be judgemental, what right do I have to label or condemn anyone else? I am far less perfect.

Confidence. Belief in one's own abilities. Atleast that's what thefreedictionary.com says confidence is. On my mind lately though, when does confidence become cockiness? Is it possible to be humble AND confident? I talked with Mike a bit about this just now. I'm always curious about his opinion because I like the way he thinks. Anyways he kind of put my feelings into words. Cockiness is pride in oneself and confidence is quiet. And then he gave me this AWESOME quote. "Humility isn't thinking less of yourself, it's thinking of yourself less." -- C.S. Lewis. Which pretty much answers all of my questions on the subject. We are beautifully and wonderfully made, so how could loving and believing in one's self be bad? I guess it is not. Something to think about..
We're moving for reals! I feel like I've talked this to death without ever feeling better or worse about it. But it's an important update in my life. And since that's kind of what this is about... Yup. Moving. Don't know where. End of the month. Mixed feelings.

I talked to Uncle Bobby and Aunt DeeDee separately for almost an hour each. It was so nice. I just love them.

I'm a SENIOR in highschool. I'm not sure I'm ready for this.