This is not the sort of thing I would blog about, but it's an important message.
Real talk.
I've been unusually convicted lately by the idea of caring for my body.
Recently I can't help but notice how the food that I eat and lack of exercise that I do will affect me and has already started affected me.
At this point in my life it's not that I want to be skinnier, or prettier.
I am honestly not caring for my body as well as I could, and I believe it is affecting my relationship with God and my abilities as a christian.
My soul belongs to the Lord and He has given me this one body to care for and love as a tool to spread His love and do His work.
I am a living breathing creation of the Lord because of this body He has given me with the command to go and do His work.
By not caring for the body I've been blessed with, I don't perform as well as I could.
I don't treat it well, I don't respect it.
If I don't respect this great gift I've been given, how will I respect and fully utilize my other gifts?
I know I want to give myself to God in mind and spirit, but do I want to give my body back to Him in it's current broken condition? Nope.
It's time to start being honest about what I'm doing.
I'm determined for positive steps to be taken.
I will take care of my self in the name of Jesus, in order to fully live out my
purpose on earth!
"Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body."
1 Corinithians 6:19-20
"For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well."
Psalm 139:13-14
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Can't help but mention
My front yard fits my heart very well symbolically. I was just picking on it the other day, but while bike riding today (I love my bike) this symbolism popped into my mind.
My yard is very green.
It is full of dandelions.
My yard has all of the components to be beautiful and strong, but the dandelions pop through and multiply with each attempt to rid the yard of them.
They multiply because we don't use weed killer, or tear them out by the root.
We simply cut their heads off while trimming the rest of the grass, spreading their pollen to other areas of the yard.
Upon closer inspection there are beautiful little purple flowers scattered in
patches all around, even around these dandelions.
Some are very apparant, some are covered by the weeds.
It took me a long while to notice they were even there, but now that I know they are there I see more and more of them.
The dandelions bother me more now than they did at first, now that I see them choking or covering the little purple flowers.
It sure makes me want to care for my yard.
My yard is very green.
It is full of dandelions.
My yard has all of the components to be beautiful and strong, but the dandelions pop through and multiply with each attempt to rid the yard of them.
They multiply because we don't use weed killer, or tear them out by the root.
We simply cut their heads off while trimming the rest of the grass, spreading their pollen to other areas of the yard.
Upon closer inspection there are beautiful little purple flowers scattered in
patches all around, even around these dandelions.
Some are very apparant, some are covered by the weeds.
It took me a long while to notice they were even there, but now that I know they are there I see more and more of them.
The dandelions bother me more now than they did at first, now that I see them choking or covering the little purple flowers.
It sure makes me want to care for my yard.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
April
Okay. At this point it's just getting pathetic that I'm not writing more frequently. I had the flu 2 weeks ago, a time when I could literally do nothing else (besides watch movies), and I still didn't write. I don't even have mandatory journaling as an excuse now. haha. I guess my reasoning is I shouldn't put things I'm unsure about oout into the universe, and while I know exactly what I've been doing for the past two months, I have little to no idea what my feelings are about it all. Compartmentalizing has been necessary.
Anywhich... A lot has happened! But that would be a tedious and long update, so I'm just going to go ahead and focus on the present.
Ex-president George W. Bush is here at the Jud today. It was for a world leaders forum, very business like and official. Lots of traffic and little parking around campus. Secret service, forced sack lunches, cancelled classes, etc. A nice change of pace.
We have a little less than 2 and a half weeks left of school! Wow. This year has gone so fast and so slow at the same time. I can not believe that on Friday 4/29/11 I will no longer be a college freshman. What a whirlwind journey this has been.
This week finishes out, then we have one more regular week of classes, then it's finals (which almost doesn't count because I have 2 full days off finals week because of test timing).
The end of this school year is bittersweet.
While I am exhausted, mentally and physically, I am really going to miss the friends I've made over the course of the year.
Not to mention the reality that I may be in Texas next semester. Or in Florida. Or somewhere else.
It's tough to swallow never seeing some of these people again!
I can't even think about leaving my roommates yet.
And I don't really want to live at home, but that's another can of worms for another night.
However, I AM excited for summer too.
Warmth, rest, music, the beach, great time with friends. I love all of that!
I'm sure there will be plenty of crying, complaining, laughing and hugging 3 Fridays from now when I move out.
Lately (meaning in the past few months), I've gotten really close with some kids here, and I just really am starting to love them! Molly, Kelsey, Reed and Mary specifically :)
Mary and I have an istant bond just because we have the same name, but she is so great. So sensitive to others, a huge heart and a beautiful beautiful voice.
Reed, I'm convinced, has a different perspective on life than every person I've ever met. He's not afraid to ask tough questions, but he also has so much love and respect for other people. I think that's really cool.
That and he's totally nuts, rarely goes to class, loves to road trip, and forces me to help him get better as a person. He will make a great husband someday.
Kelsey tries to succeed at everything she does. She doesn't like to be bored, and this is made obvious by her crazy schedule. She's real short, and real proportional. haha. She is a talented musician. She has baggage, but she is an incredible friend and a great person to seek out for advice and comfort. She is a big sweetheart.
Molly is great too :) She reminds me of Mama Cass. She even has a tambourine. She has a beautiful voice, silky hair, and a heart for broken people and lost causes. Injustice cripples her and I love that she laughs at my jokes and goes along with my games. Sometimes she's a little spacey even though she's always asking questions, but she will be a great and loving mother someday and will make a huge difference in the lives of many!
There's also people like Luke, who's a great example of a man. Wynn, who is a mystery but precious. Brenda, who loves to love. Kaitlyn, who is a light. Zack, a challenger. Erin, who loves nature and God's creation.
There's just so many great people here!
I guess I get a little carried away.
I've been having some intense worship experiences lately.
Judson challenges me to step outside my comfort sone, primarily because I feel like I'm the only one that is willing to do so.
Because of this I have spent so much time really working and making a concious effort to improve my relationship with God.
It has been consistently remwarding and I'm excited to see where it will take me in the next few weeks!
I'm trying reeeeeeal hard not to fail math. Procrastination is definitely what I have to thank for this one. haha. It is alllll me.
Bedtime soon! It's been a long and sunny day!
Anywhich... A lot has happened! But that would be a tedious and long update, so I'm just going to go ahead and focus on the present.
Ex-president George W. Bush is here at the Jud today. It was for a world leaders forum, very business like and official. Lots of traffic and little parking around campus. Secret service, forced sack lunches, cancelled classes, etc. A nice change of pace.
We have a little less than 2 and a half weeks left of school! Wow. This year has gone so fast and so slow at the same time. I can not believe that on Friday 4/29/11 I will no longer be a college freshman. What a whirlwind journey this has been.
This week finishes out, then we have one more regular week of classes, then it's finals (which almost doesn't count because I have 2 full days off finals week because of test timing).
The end of this school year is bittersweet.
While I am exhausted, mentally and physically, I am really going to miss the friends I've made over the course of the year.
Not to mention the reality that I may be in Texas next semester. Or in Florida. Or somewhere else.
It's tough to swallow never seeing some of these people again!
I can't even think about leaving my roommates yet.
And I don't really want to live at home, but that's another can of worms for another night.
However, I AM excited for summer too.
Warmth, rest, music, the beach, great time with friends. I love all of that!
I'm sure there will be plenty of crying, complaining, laughing and hugging 3 Fridays from now when I move out.
Lately (meaning in the past few months), I've gotten really close with some kids here, and I just really am starting to love them! Molly, Kelsey, Reed and Mary specifically :)
Mary and I have an istant bond just because we have the same name, but she is so great. So sensitive to others, a huge heart and a beautiful beautiful voice.
Reed, I'm convinced, has a different perspective on life than every person I've ever met. He's not afraid to ask tough questions, but he also has so much love and respect for other people. I think that's really cool.
That and he's totally nuts, rarely goes to class, loves to road trip, and forces me to help him get better as a person. He will make a great husband someday.
Kelsey tries to succeed at everything she does. She doesn't like to be bored, and this is made obvious by her crazy schedule. She's real short, and real proportional. haha. She is a talented musician. She has baggage, but she is an incredible friend and a great person to seek out for advice and comfort. She is a big sweetheart.
Molly is great too :) She reminds me of Mama Cass. She even has a tambourine. She has a beautiful voice, silky hair, and a heart for broken people and lost causes. Injustice cripples her and I love that she laughs at my jokes and goes along with my games. Sometimes she's a little spacey even though she's always asking questions, but she will be a great and loving mother someday and will make a huge difference in the lives of many!
There's also people like Luke, who's a great example of a man. Wynn, who is a mystery but precious. Brenda, who loves to love. Kaitlyn, who is a light. Zack, a challenger. Erin, who loves nature and God's creation.
There's just so many great people here!
I guess I get a little carried away.
I've been having some intense worship experiences lately.
Judson challenges me to step outside my comfort sone, primarily because I feel like I'm the only one that is willing to do so.
Because of this I have spent so much time really working and making a concious effort to improve my relationship with God.
It has been consistently remwarding and I'm excited to see where it will take me in the next few weeks!
I'm trying reeeeeeal hard not to fail math. Procrastination is definitely what I have to thank for this one. haha. It is alllll me.
Bedtime soon! It's been a long and sunny day!
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Ephesians
"Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love."
Beware of laziness in speech, of getting to comfortable with those who you love. Words should always be spoken in love, casting out demons and adding fruit to your life. It should never feel okay to use mean words against others, even if they love you unconditionally.
Tell the people who you love that you love them!
Beware of laziness in speech, of getting to comfortable with those who you love. Words should always be spoken in love, casting out demons and adding fruit to your life. It should never feel okay to use mean words against others, even if they love you unconditionally.
Tell the people who you love that you love them!
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Nobody is ever around when I injure myself
I have some really weird habbits.
Like when I don't want to throw out my gum, I just put it on something until I'm ready to chew it again. Or how I crack my back like its my job.
I don't know how I develop these things, but they sure do stick around!
Eventually I will probably be a vegan. I'm intollerant to most things (sugar... dairy... gluten... corn... rice... Yeah. I'm that kid.), so I fugure if I wait long enough I'll be forced into veganism by my body. I just get the worst head aches.
Despite my successful procrastinating yesterday, I caved and did my homework tonight.
I just really don't like having things hanging over me. I couldn't help it! So I settled for a night of post-church productivity, accomplishing homework, resume, audition organization, putting away laundry and groceries, etc. I feel better.
Jenn, Erin and I met up with Lauren for dinner after church tonight! I am so proud of her! She had her IWU audition yesterday and she is so happy with they way it went! She has just come so far and grown so much since I met her 6 years ago that I feel like a proud mom to hear how well she's doing and about her positive attitude through all of the stress. She is growing into a beautiful girl!
I'm not sure what tomorrow has in store for me!
No more homework or cleaning or organizing can be done here... and it's the Sabbath, so no work will be done anyways... But I have no plans! Maybe I'll go to the costume room for a while since I didn't go today. Or catch up on some reading and stay in. Or go and work on some music in the practice rooms. It all sounds good to me!
Bed time!
Like when I don't want to throw out my gum, I just put it on something until I'm ready to chew it again. Or how I crack my back like its my job.
I don't know how I develop these things, but they sure do stick around!
Eventually I will probably be a vegan. I'm intollerant to most things (sugar... dairy... gluten... corn... rice... Yeah. I'm that kid.), so I fugure if I wait long enough I'll be forced into veganism by my body. I just get the worst head aches.
Despite my successful procrastinating yesterday, I caved and did my homework tonight.
I just really don't like having things hanging over me. I couldn't help it! So I settled for a night of post-church productivity, accomplishing homework, resume, audition organization, putting away laundry and groceries, etc. I feel better.
Jenn, Erin and I met up with Lauren for dinner after church tonight! I am so proud of her! She had her IWU audition yesterday and she is so happy with they way it went! She has just come so far and grown so much since I met her 6 years ago that I feel like a proud mom to hear how well she's doing and about her positive attitude through all of the stress. She is growing into a beautiful girl!
I'm not sure what tomorrow has in store for me!
No more homework or cleaning or organizing can be done here... and it's the Sabbath, so no work will be done anyways... But I have no plans! Maybe I'll go to the costume room for a while since I didn't go today. Or catch up on some reading and stay in. Or go and work on some music in the practice rooms. It all sounds good to me!
Bed time!
Friday, January 28, 2011
January
Okay, I'm not even going to attempt to write regularly any more.
It just doesn't happen when I'm busy.
English 102 last semester taught me that if I'm not being forced to write (i.e. graded on my progress) I rarely set aside time to do it.
Hence the vocal performance major.
I enjoy writing, really I do, but the busy college life (I go to bed at 10) has overtaken me once again. I simply don't think about writing beyond the copious notes that I take and papers that I write.
As for the 10 pm bedtime... I get inordinately cranky with less than 9 hours of sleep. I can function on 8, but that starts to push it mood wise. This separates me from the average college student(my friends all have an average bed time atleast 3 hours later), but it's for the good of the JU community that I am as rested as possible. It's mayhem otherwise. Outright pandemonium. With a lot of crying.
My attitude regarding school has improved since my first week back.
(it was looking pretty bad there for a while, but don't worry, positivity prevailed)
I have no job, but I do have random influxes of money when I really need it. God's blessing!
I'm still respecting the Sabbath, and each week I grow increasingly more grateful!
My Baylor audition in set for the 3rd weekend of february. I am equal parts excited and scared, but I am working through giving this process and my feelings on the matter entirely to God. It is a struggle to hand over something that I want so badly, but I'm figuring I can either go willingly or kicking and screaming and nervous. This is making my choice easier.
Relationships... blah blah... bad JU food.. blah... independence..
I just downloaded a bunch of new music today! Good stuff.
Right now I'm mostly just really sleepy actually, so the updating goes about as indepth as I just got.
Much has changed!
Tomorrow I'm supposed to go and help Lela and Melissa with the costume room at Jud! I really enjoy spending time with both of them and I love costume rooms in general, even the hot mess that is claimed my Judson, so that will hopefully work out well.
I'm hoping to go see Henry Cloud teach at willow also, I'm seen him before and I feel like I'll get a lot out of the teaching.
Sleeping is an indulgence I don't mind giving in to one bit right now.
I hope all is well!
It just doesn't happen when I'm busy.
English 102 last semester taught me that if I'm not being forced to write (i.e. graded on my progress) I rarely set aside time to do it.
Hence the vocal performance major.
I enjoy writing, really I do, but the busy college life (I go to bed at 10) has overtaken me once again. I simply don't think about writing beyond the copious notes that I take and papers that I write.
As for the 10 pm bedtime... I get inordinately cranky with less than 9 hours of sleep. I can function on 8, but that starts to push it mood wise. This separates me from the average college student(my friends all have an average bed time atleast 3 hours later), but it's for the good of the JU community that I am as rested as possible. It's mayhem otherwise. Outright pandemonium. With a lot of crying.
My attitude regarding school has improved since my first week back.
(it was looking pretty bad there for a while, but don't worry, positivity prevailed)
I have no job, but I do have random influxes of money when I really need it. God's blessing!
I'm still respecting the Sabbath, and each week I grow increasingly more grateful!
My Baylor audition in set for the 3rd weekend of february. I am equal parts excited and scared, but I am working through giving this process and my feelings on the matter entirely to God. It is a struggle to hand over something that I want so badly, but I'm figuring I can either go willingly or kicking and screaming and nervous. This is making my choice easier.
Relationships... blah blah... bad JU food.. blah... independence..
I just downloaded a bunch of new music today! Good stuff.
Right now I'm mostly just really sleepy actually, so the updating goes about as indepth as I just got.
Much has changed!
Tomorrow I'm supposed to go and help Lela and Melissa with the costume room at Jud! I really enjoy spending time with both of them and I love costume rooms in general, even the hot mess that is claimed my Judson, so that will hopefully work out well.
I'm hoping to go see Henry Cloud teach at willow also, I'm seen him before and I feel like I'll get a lot out of the teaching.
Sleeping is an indulgence I don't mind giving in to one bit right now.
I hope all is well!
Monday, January 3, 2011
Tumbled upon.
"Never let anyone love you less than you love yourself."
Think about that. Letting others treat you poorly is disrespectful to who God created you to be.
(This week has been very nice)
Think about that. Letting others treat you poorly is disrespectful to who God created you to be.
(This week has been very nice)
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