Getting back on the horse... for now.

I'm going to be real here, I haven't posted in forever. Being even more real, in the next 3 weeks I will go on a missions trip to Honduras, pack up my life and move, visit Memphis and do my first week of camps for the summer. I probably won't be posting again for a while. haha. I mean, I'm exhausted (and excited and sad) just THINKING about all of those things! I do need some record of my life though and this is a great way to do it! I really don't even know where to start since so much has happened since December when I last posted, so I'm going to go against instinct and towards laziness and just share where I'm at right now. I'm pretty much a moving ball of emotion lately. I have to stop and wonder if people can even see me through the cloud of joy and fear and sadness and love and nerves and confusion that must surround me at all times. I am so thankful for my time here in the big TX and so sad to leave after almost 8 months! I have grown so close to the students I've been mentoring and I have learned so much from the staff I'm interning under. I honestly never thought that moving here for makeup and skin education would come as a package deal with a fantastic church community, youth ministry internship and mission work in Honduras. Never in a million years. But it did! I graduated school at the end of April and I still have a sense of pride at my completion knowing how challenging it was spiritually, physically and emotionally to get through all of those long days and the many hours of homework and practice. I don't know what more I could ask for in my life and that fills me with even more joy to know that God has so much more in store for me this year! I am growing stronger and pursuing righteousness and self discipline in ways that I never imagined. Basically I'm proud of myself. haha. This summer the plan is to work my booty off to be the best teacher I can be working camps an generally enjoying life and my many blessings. Although uncomfortable, I'm really being challenged in grace and humility right now. God is giving me perspective on what it looks like to love people for their souls and in a more eternal way. I've been creating and worshiping and changing. I feel like an entirely different person actually. Which is probably a good thing! Praise God that He is good even when I'm not :) Excited for this upcoming week working in Honduras!