Sara Bareilles is my musical Hero. I love everything that she does. I love the way her music makes me feel. The way it's arranged. Her voice. Her emotion. The fact that she sounds even better live. I just LOVE listening to it. She also looks kind of like Bobby's girlfriend. Which is kind of weird.
I just felt like writing again today.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Kittens.
I wrote in my last post, a full month ago, that I was itching for summer. Now I reeeeeally am! In a very literal way. haha. I am covered in mosquito bites! & they are REALLY itching. I guess that and the slight sunburn that is covering my skin truly signifies the beginning of summer though! I could not be more happy that it's finally here! I dare say that it may have been worth all this waiting... Lets see. I graduated May 15th! I actually feel older. Les Mis is all over, such a worthwhile experience. I grew so much during and because of it. Very cool. Footloose is started! So that's nice! I'm house/dog sitting for the Boucek's while they're in Hawaii... and I love it. Love. I was not built to live with my family. But this has made me decide that at least for this year, Judson is where I need to be. I'm ready to be on my own, but not all the way. So I can transfer as a sophmore. At least that's MY plan. We'll see how that changes for me according to whatever God has planned. I'd say I'm pretty open. Which means I'm probably more closed off than I know. I'm currently choosing plans for a particular week of my summer: New York City road trip or Project Dance camp. Trust me. This is not an easy of a decision as it seems like it would be.
Life has been easier than the past couple weeks, it has actually been quite a struggle, but it has really made me thankful for my friends. It's been so nice to grow closer with some, and not so nice to see myself growing away from others. I'm just so grateful to be blessed with the friends that I have. ESPECIALLY my mom. Is that silly? I don't really mind if it is. I love my mom. I adore her. And I love that she always has time for me. And will drive to bring me gatorade at 4 am when I'm hurling and alone at the Boucek's. And will stay home and have a movie night with me. And will make me home made pizza because she knows I'm upset. I'm just really lucky to have her. Anyways. I've learned so much through everything that's been happening. Like how important honesty is in life. I don't know if there is another person alive who values honesty as highly as I do. In any relationship honesty is so key. I just don't know how to stress that highly enough. I've also learned a lot about trust. Trusting others AND trusting yourself. I don't feel much of a need to elaborate on that one. It's more of a personal growth thing than a public wisdom thing. But trusting yourself and your instinct, not doubting them, will almost always keep you in a good place. If something feels wrong, it probably is. Go with that. I most recently learned that a relationship with God takes a lot of work. haha. I may be laughing, but it's just because it's a silly thing to say, not because it's not true. I've learned that I can't expect to gain a strong relationship with God and just expect it to stay like that forever without putting time and effort into it! It's like a muscle. You can build it up and build it up until you're happy with it, but if you don't make an effort to maintain it, you can't just expect it to stay strong because you don't have time to work out. Next thing you know, you want to use it or need it and it's diminished.
It takes a continued effort. But it's so worth it. Like looking good for swimsuit season after a year of working out. haha.
Anyways. I am currently trying to spiritually work out a lot more often. I'm not perfect. But I can certainly do better than I have been :)
CYT@School finally ends tomorrow! YEAH! I am so excited! This semester has certainly put a strain on my patience. haha. And Natalie graduates on Thursday! All of my friends are growing up... I can't wait to see what's next for all of us!
Well. I will try not to wait another month to do this again!
Off to beddy!
Life has been easier than the past couple weeks, it has actually been quite a struggle, but it has really made me thankful for my friends. It's been so nice to grow closer with some, and not so nice to see myself growing away from others. I'm just so grateful to be blessed with the friends that I have. ESPECIALLY my mom. Is that silly? I don't really mind if it is. I love my mom. I adore her. And I love that she always has time for me. And will drive to bring me gatorade at 4 am when I'm hurling and alone at the Boucek's. And will stay home and have a movie night with me. And will make me home made pizza because she knows I'm upset. I'm just really lucky to have her. Anyways. I've learned so much through everything that's been happening. Like how important honesty is in life. I don't know if there is another person alive who values honesty as highly as I do. In any relationship honesty is so key. I just don't know how to stress that highly enough. I've also learned a lot about trust. Trusting others AND trusting yourself. I don't feel much of a need to elaborate on that one. It's more of a personal growth thing than a public wisdom thing. But trusting yourself and your instinct, not doubting them, will almost always keep you in a good place. If something feels wrong, it probably is. Go with that. I most recently learned that a relationship with God takes a lot of work. haha. I may be laughing, but it's just because it's a silly thing to say, not because it's not true. I've learned that I can't expect to gain a strong relationship with God and just expect it to stay like that forever without putting time and effort into it! It's like a muscle. You can build it up and build it up until you're happy with it, but if you don't make an effort to maintain it, you can't just expect it to stay strong because you don't have time to work out. Next thing you know, you want to use it or need it and it's diminished.
It takes a continued effort. But it's so worth it. Like looking good for swimsuit season after a year of working out. haha.
Anyways. I am currently trying to spiritually work out a lot more often. I'm not perfect. But I can certainly do better than I have been :)
CYT@School finally ends tomorrow! YEAH! I am so excited! This semester has certainly put a strain on my patience. haha. And Natalie graduates on Thursday! All of my friends are growing up... I can't wait to see what's next for all of us!
Well. I will try not to wait another month to do this again!
Off to beddy!
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